NO MUSE TO BRUISE

THE HEIGHTS OF MYSTERIES

As we dare to part those thick dark clouds 

That looming here deny us All

Those sights and sounds that we in deep dispair 

Ensnare in deep foreboding

We agree to linger there in pause we dare deny

The many tears That Now Do Dare to linger 

In the shadows of our deep despair

what is this anguish and neglect 

That clouds all that we so long  See and 

Keep our ears in silence and in desperate loss  

There is so much we want to see and hear, hold near, 

Fondle and in Sweetness tenderly embrace.

Yet all this that we dare to Dream does sadly there remain Beyond

The smoke and Shadows Looming beyond all sights and sound

HOLY TRINITY   CLICK THE LINK ACCEPT THE GIFT OF PRAISE

A Stitch In Time

4/3/19
It is my responsibility and my sworn duty to inform the worthy and unworthy all for whom my Lord and Master gave his Precious Blood and died upon a cross reserved for sinners, the child of God, the immaculate lamb, which had no sin; suffered and died for the sins of the world. For you and for me, my dear reader,  we are the beneficiaries. Our eternal life insurance premium has been fully paid and we do not have to struggle or stress to pay our premium because it is fully paid. Paid with the blood of the Lamb, the Priceless blood of the only son of God, who never had sinned, who paid the price for all our sins.

Es mi responsabilidad y mi deber jurado informar a todos los dignos e indignos por los que mi Señor y Maestro entrego su Preciosa Sangre y murio en una cruz reservada  para nosotros los pecadores, el Hijo de Dios, el inmaculado cordero, que no tuvo pecado, y murió por los pecados del mundo, por ti y por mí, mi querido lector, somos los beneficiarios. Nuestro primium de seguro de vida eterna ha sido pagado en su totalidad y no tenemos que esforzarnos ni estresarnos para pagar nuestro primium porque está totalmente pagado. Pagado con la sangre del Cordero, la sangre inestimable del único Hijo de Dios que nunca había pecado y que pagó el precio por todos nuestros pecados.

So let us celebrate in righteousness and practice to reach perfection which by faith we can achieve believing in His righteousness and His perfection.  I'm striving to learn and imitate the lessons he has taught us let us endeavor to love our neighbor to stretch out a hand of kindness and lift up the crestfallen those in need let us lend succor and give them a hand whenever we can. Let us shine a smile on those that by His Mercy come into our path.

Así que celebremos con justicia y practiquemos para alcanzar la perfección, que por la fe podemos lograr creyendo en Su justicia y Su perfección. Me estoy esforzando por aprender e imitar las lecciones que nos ha enseñado, esforzemosno por amar a nuestro prójimo para extender una mano de bondad y alzar los abatidos Y a los necesitados, ayudemos y demosle una mano cada vez que podamos. Brillemos una sonrisa en aquellos que por Su Misericordia entran en nuestro camino.

Let's endeavor to be a light in the world full of so much Darkness. Let us be that shining beacon on the hill that is not hidden under the bushel basket. Let us strive to lend and not to borrow, forgive and not to hold rancor or any ill-will. Striving toward the mark of the High Calling, that which He has reserved for us.

Procuremos ser una luz en el mundo lleno de tanta Oscuridad. Seamos ese faro resplandeciente en la colina que no está escondido debajo de la canasta. Luchemos por prestar y no pedir prestado, perdonar y no tener rencor o mala voluntad. Luchando hacia la marca del Alto Llamado, lo que Él nos ha reservado.

Let us pursue without fainting let's strive and let us endeavor forever to be a better person then we were. Moment by moment let us seek our own Improvement let us see how much brighter our life can shine from one moment to the next let us do good wherever we go. Be an example to all those around to live and strive to new heights two new plateaus each day seeking that goal accepting the precious gift of our premium because it is fully paid, paid with the blood of the lamb, the priceless blood of the only Son of God who never had sinned, who paid the price for all our sins.

Persigamos sin desmayarnos, luchemos y procuremos por siempre ser mejores personas de lo que éramos. Momento por momento, busquemos nuestro propio Mejoramiento, veamos cuánto más brillante puede brillar nuestra vida de un momento a otro, hagamos el bien donde sea que vayamos. Sea un ejemplo para todos los que están a su alrededor para vivir y esforzarse por alcanzar nuevas alturas, nuevas metas cada día buscando ese objetivo, aceptando el precioso regalo de Nuestro primium porque está totalmente pagado, se pago con la sangre del cordero, la inestimable sangre del único Hijo de Dios que nunca había pecado, que pagó el precio por todos nuestros pecados.

So let us celebrate in righteousness and practice to reach perfection which by faith we can achieve believing in His own righteousness. We can strive and achieve by faith the perfection that is our goal, a goal He has perfected and reserved for each and every one of us who has the humility to accept His precious gift. Knowing full well that no works of our own doing can in any way repay the price of that premium. Knowing in fact that we can be everything that he asked us to be. Because He is perfection He knows perfection and He has reserved perfection for each and everyone humble enough to accept His gift.

Así que celebremos con justicia y practiquemos para alcanzar la perfección que, por fe, podemos lograr creyendo en su propia justicia. Podemos esforzarnos y alcanzar por la fe la perfección que es nuestra meta, una meta que Él ha perfeccionado y reservado para todos y cada uno de nosotros que tenemos la humildad de aceptar Su precioso don. Sabiendo muy bien que ninguna obra por nuestra cuenta puede pagar el precio de ese primium. Sabiendo de hecho que podemos ser todo lo que él nos pidió que fuéramos. Debido a que Él es la perfección, Él conoce la perfección y ha reservado la perfección para todos y cada uno lo suficientemente humilde como para aceptar Su regalo.

And He said, “Hear now My words: If there be a prophet among you, I, the Lord, will make Myself known unto him in a vision, and will speak unto him in a dream. - Numbers 12:6 Y Él dijo: “Escucha ahora Mis palabras: Si hay un profeta entre ustedes, yo, el Señor, me daré a conocer a Él en una visión y le hablaré en un sueño. - Números 12: 6

Acts 2:17-21 

And it shall come to pass in the last days, saith God, I will pour out of my Spirit upon all flesh: and your sons and your daughters shall prophesy, and your young men shall see visions, and your old men shall dream dreams: And on my servants and on my handmaidens I will pour out in those days of my Spirit; and they shall prophesy: And I will shew wonders in heaven above, and signs in the earth beneath; blood, and fire, and vapour of smoke: ...

Hechos 2: 17-21

Y acontecerá en los últimos días, dice Dios, que derramaré mi Espíritu sobre toda carne: y vuestros hijos y vuestras hijas profetizarán, y vuestros jóvenes verán visiones, y vuestros ancianos soñarán sueños. Y en mis siervos y en mis siervas derramaré en aquellos días de mi Espíritu; y profetizarán. Y haré maravillas en el cielo arriba, y señales en la tierra debajo; Sangre, y fuego, y vapor de humo.

Heb 4:9
Por tanto, queda un reposo para el pueblo de Dios.
There remains therefore a Sabbath rest for the people of God.
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Porque el que ha entrado en su reposo, también él ha reposado de sus obras, como Dios de las suyas.
For he who has entered into his rest has himself also rested from his works, as God did from his.
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Procuremos pues de entrar en aquel reposo; que ninguno caiga en semejante ejemplo de desobediencia.
Let us therefore give diligence to enter into that rest, lest anyone fall after the same example of disobedience.
12
Porque la palabra de Dios es viva y eficaz, y más penetrante que toda espada de dos filos: y que alcanza hasta partir el alma, y aun el espíritu, y las coyunturas y tuétanos, y discierne los pensamientos y las intenciones del corazón.
For the word of God is living, and active, and sharper than any two-edged sword, and piercing even to the dividing of soul and spirit, of both joints and marrow, and is able to discern the thoughts and intentions of the heart.
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Y no hay cosa criada que no sea manifiesta en su presencia; antes todas las cosas están desnudas y abiertas á los ojos de aquel á quien tenemos que dar cuenta.
There is no creature that is hidden from his sight, but all things are naked and laid open before the eyes of him with whom we have to give account.
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Por tanto, teniendo un gran Pontífice, que penetró los cielos, Jesús el Hijo de Dios, retengamos nuestra profesión.
Having then a great high priest, who has passed through the heavens, Jesus, the Son of God, let us hold tightly to our confession.
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Porque no tenemos un Pontífice que no se pueda compadecer de nuestras flaquezas; mas tentado en todo según nuestra semejanza, pero sin pecado.
For we don`t have a high priest who can`t be touched with the feeling of our infirmities, but one who has been in all points tempted like we are, yet without sin.
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Lleguémonos pues confiadamente al trono de la gracia, para alcanzar misericordia, y hallar gracia para el oportuno Socorro.
Let us, therefore, draw near with boldness to the throne of grace, that we may receive mercy, and may find grace for help in time of need

FACTS OF MY LIFE

Facts of Life

Reaching the tender young age of 75 years Young. After losing my home to fire then moving next door to the chapel and Parrish house, after the 7 days trauma diarrhea from sensory overload, that my son suffered resulting from the fire, being autistic, being left in a car, while fireman and police were all around. Those 7 days were hard for the autistic son of mine.

Then settling in, the month of January having just passed our Christmas debacle, this then was unsettling, and having settled in, discover very poor water pressure to the second floor in which we lived since the first floor was in mid renovation, with the water pressure not bringing the water to the second floor, the buckets taken by my wife of 22 years, up to the second floor, finally in the month of February the second day she went to her reward, these are The Facts of Life, I know because this is my life.

Having discovered the treachery that was everywhere around me by my many circumstance and happenstance, my whole existence was focused on care of my son. Taking all this in, the loss of a home the loss of a mother reaching into the month of June, the ageing out at 21 from his Special Needs school, cost him extreme anxiety so that he would go to the hospital almost every other day, in the ambulance, from the school and from the house.

Finally when his insomnia was more than I could handle since the medication maritzapine was causing him severe distress and much agitation, I then decided to go to the hospital to ask for a new prescription. Once there we were denied, and that night he had to, once again at 3 a.m., take the same medication.

Next day when he awoke his agitation was severe. He was spilling liquids out of the refrigerator and attempting to run out of the house into the street. Upon holding him by his hands to keep him from walking out of the house, holding his wrists, one in each of my hands. Caused him to snap, and break his arm.

So upon us arriving at the hospital, spending 30 days in his healing, with 24-hour in the hospital room care. I was able to share the room for 30 days, after which I was asked to leave. Upon a return for a visit I discovered that an agency caregiver, was molesting my son by fondling, and so I reported that night, and I reported Saturday morning since the visit was on Friday night, and I reported Monday morning to State Capital Health Department and Justice Department.

The retaliation was, that I was told, that I could not visit my son unless there were three Hospital staff in the room. So this intimidated me in the context of the hospital having a psychiatric ward, and my own clear interpretation that if I went to visit my son I would not be leaving the hospital, and so the intimidation kept me out of court, so that there was petition for the temporary guardianship that removed me as the guardian of my son. This results in my own inability to find his location. Inability to know his whereabouts and therefore not having any visitation privilege, so I lost the right to see my son. Now for a period of 5 years.

I know now that he is in my County and I know who his Medicaid service coordinator is and that as far as my knowledge has taken me. Not knowing anymore and not having Finance for an attorney, and dealing with my everyday existence keeps me in the dark as to the quality of care that my son receives from day today. These are The Facts of Life.

After losing my son and the resulting heart failure that was open-heart bypass surgery, leaving me in a most severely impaired and slow recuperation. Therefore it's very difficult for me to get through one day into the next. Also being a symptom of my bipolar disorder namely insomnia, the medications both prescription and over-the-counter I must use to sleep. Challenge my every morning. I am constantly influx in attempting to control the morning fog.

This morning I was clear somewhat, and I was able to clean my kitchen floor and do some cleaning inside my refrigerator. My roommate, also my wife has Departed leaving me alone and in charge of my surroundings. This morning I was able to accomplish just what I stated. I cleaned my kitchen floor a piece of the bathroom floor and part of the refrigerator. I had a coffee with some coffee cake.

For lunch, and after the cleaning and washing of dishes, I was able to make large slices of rye bread cut thickly and put tomato and lettuce and seafood salad on sandwich. So this is what I was able to do because I had seafood salad in the fridge I had the rye bread on the table and I also had fresh tomato in the refrigerator. I looked in the breadbox, and I find there kaiser roll now a kaiser roll inspires me to cut it up into small pieces to make garlic croutons.

So I look around to Everything I have and I find a use for it. Then I have a sense of worth and command of my environment I know that I can have an apartment for $199 a month because I do. I know that I can go to my medical appointments in an ambulette because I do. I have excellent medical coverage insurance Medicaid and Medicare I am insured by 2 medical insurance I have a sub-standard health home service with a navigator. These are my services in the state of New York I have 24 hours of Medical in home care which I cannot fill but I have not given up trying. These are the facts of my life.

Never losing sight of my dream. My obsession for a minister real enterprise that sets families free inside their home, so they do not have to be victim of mailbox bondage. I have many irons in the fire. To which I must Focus attention to articulate, and move off the drawing board. Out of planning stages and to preliminary stages, and recruiting the teams that will help me to make this dream come true.